Dieting

So I started my weight watchers journey almost 2 years ago. WOW two years. It's been a long time. I thought for sure that at a year and a half and I would be at goal. I also thought a year and a half was giving my self a few screw up weeks. Realistically you can lose 1-2 pounds a week and remain healthy. So I should have been able to lose the weight with in a year being I only needed to lose 60 (ish) pounds. But I didn't want the pressure. Here it is almost 2 years later and I am 20 pounds away from my goal. ::SIGH:: I have been 20 pounds away from my goal for a whole year. Last year November was the last time I had a significant weight lose.

When I made the decision to join Weight Watchers I decided it was a life long decision. No opting out for any reason. Over this last year I have thought several time about quiting. I am happy where I am at, I just can't justify spending the money when I apparently am not taking it seriously, this is the weight I have always gotten stuck on so maybe it's the weight I am supposed to be. ALL LIES!!!!

I am NOT happy with where I am at. I have never been content at this weight I have always dieted, trying to lose a few more pounds. This is the weight I was when I got married and I was always trying to lose then. This is the weight I spent most of my teenage years being and I was always trying to lose then too. I am not happy here. I want the best I want the -20lbs. I will achieve this.

I can't justify spending the money when I am apparently not taking it seriously. Well I am taking it seriously I just can't figure out what needs to change. If my exercise needs to increase or if my diet needs adjusting or both. If I wasn't taking this seriously than I wouldn't be going to my weekly meetings, I wouldn't be calculation my points, I wouldn't have reached out and asked for help.

This is the weight I am always stuck at so maybe it's the weight I am supposed to be. Yeah I don't think so. I have been smaller I just forget. And I just need to look back at my "before" picture and see how far I have come and know that I can do this. If I have made it this far I can go the distance.

Last week I reached out for help on a blog site that I know fellow weight watchers post and someone answered my cry. I am meeting her this Thursday. She is a life timer (means she is at goal and has kept at goal for a while now) She wants to take on my case, so to speak, and see what needs to adjust and how to help me get to goal. I am so excited I can't wait to slip into my new body. I can't wait to look at myself and say I DID IT!! I can't wait to post how much I weigh (only me, my doctor, and the weight watchers instructor know) Some have a guess and they are close but I won't reveal the numbers of where I have been or what I am until I get to post the "after" picture.

Wish me luck, say a prayer, cross your fingers. I need it all. I just think that for someone who went on her first diet at age 10 she should be able to reach her goal by the time she is 35.

Build A Bear date

I haven't taken my nieces on a date in over a month so I have been raking my brain for what to do. I don't want to repeat a date with the same girl. Well Jessica is a faithful shopper of Build A Bear Workshop and every year for her birthday she gets amazing coupons. Which is funny because for three years in a row all she wanted was build a bears. Anyways a few weeks ago we get a coupon for $12 off an animal purchase. That means you could get a free bear!! So Jess and I talk and since she has plenty of animals and Ana is as much of an animal lover as she we would take Ana out on a date and get her the some accessories. Every weekend has been busy busy busy, so we were going to squish in the date on a week night just before the coupon expired. Well she got sick :( so Jess and I went to build a bear last night to see if we can get an unstuffed bear and bring Ana when she was no longer sick. They said no problem. Not only was it a free animal they gave us a coupon for $7 off a $10 purchase. WOW this is going to be a very inexpensive date.

oops

Yesterday I went to hancock fabric store to buy some material and ended up standing in two lines that took 1 hour and 20 minutes total. The boys were so good. I kept telling them how good they were and that I would take them to the library for a reward. ::sigh:: I completely forgot that it was Veterans Day and the library was closed. Poor little Tyson, when we pulled up in the parking lot I said " OH no I am so sorry the library is closed." Tyson stuck out his lip (and boy he can stick it out far) and said "oh no how can this happen." and started to cry. Talk about ripping out my heart. I felt so terrible.

Zuri

Today I took the kids to the zoo. Zuri our new baby elephant was so active. I took some video on my phone and I will make it Jeremy's homework to put it on here. I tried to get her trying to dive into her water bowl but by the time I got my camera out and working she decided that wasn't no fun any more. I got her running around and digging in the dirt. Oh I could just sit there for hours watching that cutie pie. The other baby animals are cute an all but they just sleep all the time. Zuri is so entertaining and full of personality.