still working at it

Weight has been an issue for me my whole life. Started to "diet" when I was in 3rd grade. But of course what does a 3rd grader know; so my diet was skipping breakfast. Right now I have been in Weight Watchers for 2 1/2 years. I needed to lose roughly 55-60 lbs to hit goal when I started. Most of the people I see who put their whole heart into it can lose 50-60 lbs in about 5 months. Sadly i am still not at goal. But I am still working hard at it. This last month I have been watching what I eat and trying to get in as much exercise as my schedule will let and my weight keeps creeping up. 3 weeks ago I went into my meeting and the scale said I had gained 4.2 lbs. ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME!!!!!!! I bawled all the way home. I couldn't think of anything I did to deserve that kind of weight gain. I decided not to change anything and see what happened the next week, and I was down 4.6. Huge sigh of relief as well as major confusion. Then last week I go in and I am up 3.6. Again can't really see where I went wrong. I did share a dessert with a friend though. So through all of this I realized that in the beginning things seemed easier than they are now. I have to fight to lose any weight at all and I gain on weeks I think I should have lost. I have decided to go back to the beginning and do all the strict things I did then. Not use my bonus points not allow myself to eat a dessert and to weight myself everyday. Wednesday is my weigh in days and I am looking forward to what their scales my say. Mine tells me it's been a good week. I like to share a quote from a writer friend of mine...

In my internal dialog, I say to myself, "I want to lose a pound. That's all, just a pound." When I lost that pound, I'd start the saying over, "I think I'll try to lose a pound." When I lost that pound, I was two pounds lighter. I have a big goal: lose 65 pounds minimum. But that goal is too big for my confidence, so I focus on one pound at a time. -Al Gansky.

That's what I am doing just one pound at a time. Baby steps. That's what I did in the beginning. First I started to evaluate what I ate, Incorporated healthier choices, left out unhealthy choice. Once I got the eating under control I then started to add movement, go for a walk around the neighborhood, start walking on a track to measure my distance, added in a jog from this light pole to that light pole, jog most of the time. Maybe add in some weights from time to time. Baby steps all the way.

Another thing I did in the beginning was I had friends who were starting weight watchers too. I loved motivating them. Although I don't have that now I have found blogs of local fellow W.W. goers that I am reading. I leave comments from time to time but their stories are inspiring me and my comments make me feel useful.